The Lucky One

Too-ra-loo-ra-loo-ral,
Too-ra-loo-ra-li,
Too-ra-loo-ra-loo-ral,
That’s an Irish lullaby.

My mom used to sing that song to me when I was little. Those words….that song…when I hear it, it’s as if I’ve been transported back to 1978 when I was three years old. Memories of my childhood flood my mind. So many that I’m drowning in them. Memories of times far less complicated. Memories of what I thought was a simple life.
Those memories give me comfort. They are my safe place. That song takes me back to sitting on mommy’s lap while she sang to me and stroked my hair. Rocking back and forth, back and forth, I could feel her long, red hair brushing up against my face. She would smile while she sang. I would gaze into her radiant sky blue eyes until I drifted off into my “land of make believe”.

Too-ra-loo-ra-loo-ral,
Too-ra-loo-ra-li,
Too-ra-loo-ra-loo-ral,
That’s an Irish lullaby.

Forty years later I sing that same song to my son. We are creating memories. It gives him comfort. It provides him a safe place. I cradle him as he snuggles in my lap rocking back and forth, back and forth. I sing to him while I stroke his hair. I smile while I sing to him. He gazes into my beaming blue eyes until he drifts off to his “Neverland”.

He fades away without a care in the world. I am captivated by his presence. I yearn for his innocence. I watch him sleep. My breath coinciding with his. Our hearts beat in sync. We are connected on a different level. He is part of me. He provides me comfort. He is my safe space.

I gently kiss his forehead. I thank him for the joy he brings me. I thank him for the memories we are creating. I thank him for letting me be his mommy.

I am the lucky one.

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Photo Credit: Eve Hannah

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